where is the balance???

I want to be happy

Whatever that even means.

I want to affect my world positively,

To be able to run through the fields

Of my so-called "troubles"

And accept that  I am not perfect.

That everything is going to be alright!

Which it is.

I want to be able to look at this turmoil,

And laugh at it,

Endlessly, as I make tea

and Shepherd's pie!

I want to stand up out of this muddy mess

And walk away into my own glory,

To embrace the strength I already possess inside.

To stop comparing my being

To things that are not me

Will never be me.

I want to understand

That not all things will remain the same,

That giving and receiving is a mutual thing

That I should not over-extend myself

Because it takes me off my balance

And gives power to something without me

Allowing it to control how I value myself

When that is all completely atrocious.

Balance

Balance 

Balance

I want balance!

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